I treasure the doll. Carter's has been a big part of dressing both of my babies, so it's nice to have a lasting reminder of the adorable little clothes that my girls can play with for years to come.
And when my grandmother passed away about a year later, I realized that gift meant even more. She would never get to meet her other great-grandchildren or pick something out for them that she thought they might like.
At my work baby shower for Alice, I was in a room full of people opening presents and was startled to find another Carter's doll. There was no way my co-worker could have known about it. And in a way, it was like Grandma was right there with me, letting me know that she wanted this one to have something special, too.
I know pregnancy is an emotional time that comes with its own set of irrational thoughts and weepy moments, but that's what I was thinking. And 4 months after the pregnancy has ended, I still believe it.
Alice loves this little doll. It's very soft and squeezeable, and when she gets a little sleepy, I put the baby in her arms and she pulls it toward her face to chew on it.
I really miss Grandma.